I am blessed. I know this better than anyone. I have an amazing husband, great kids and wonderfully supportive family and friends. In the big scheme of things LIFE IS GOOD. (You know there is a BUT coming, don't you?!) BUT, MOVING IS HARD. No matter how excited you are, how ready you are, moving is hard - PERIOD. Moving overseas is harder. Watching your kids say goodbye to their friends and their brother is heartbreakingly hard. Having your vet tell you that he thinks your dog probably won't make it if he flies half way around the world is hard. Leaving your first born in the states is EVEN HARDER. Leaving him while he is going through personal difficulties of his own is stab a knife in your heart hard. Saying goodbye to a Mother that doesn't even recognize you anymore and thinking this *might* be the last time you see her here on this earth beyond hard. I've always know life is hard, I preach it to our children. "Life is hard - get over it. Life is not fair - suck it up buttercup." These words are echoing in my ears now, right now, when all I really want an easy button. Is that too much to ask for? EASY BUTTON, where are you?!?!
BUT, (there's that word again!) I know if I had an easy button to push I wouldn't be the person I am today. Life is hard, and it makes us who we are. There are lessons we all need to learn and if we had an easy button, what lessons would we learn? There is a reason there is no easy button.
Boy 1 didn't hit the easy button. He could have pushed it and moved to his favorite city with us and went to online school here in Korea, BUT he is writing his own story now and as I watch him from afar I am inspired and in awe. He is such a strong, self sufficient young man. He works full time, goes to school full time, has moved to a new city to pursue his dreams and he's not giving up. I like to believe it is because I told him multiple times to 'suck it up'. ;) As I watch him I'm in awe! I don't know if he knows it or not, but he is helping ME right now. His family, his lifeline has moved to the other side of the freaking world. He moved to a new city where he knows NO ONE. Not a single person. He is out there on his own, TRULY on his own. Yes, he has met a few new people at work but he went knowing NO ONE. What 20 year old does that? He is STRONG. He inspires me each and every day, and I miss him so much my heart physically aches.
I share this with you all today because even though I'm living the dream, I want you to know behind all the fun post of which market I shopped at, how I'm running into new/old friends, how much joy I'm getting out of eating at all our favorite restaurants in Seoul that I am just like you, going through my own stuff. Even though I make it see fun (which it is in that moment) and seamless, moving is hard, and fun, and glorious and HARD. However, I know better than anyone that it could be harder. I know that there are so many people out there that are going through so much more than I am -- I'm talking real struggles and they are one of the many reason I always count my blessings.
Life could be so much harder.
Life is good.
Till next time,
Trish
BUT, (there's that word again!) I know if I had an easy button to push I wouldn't be the person I am today. Life is hard, and it makes us who we are. There are lessons we all need to learn and if we had an easy button, what lessons would we learn? There is a reason there is no easy button.
Boy 1 didn't hit the easy button. He could have pushed it and moved to his favorite city with us and went to online school here in Korea, BUT he is writing his own story now and as I watch him from afar I am inspired and in awe. He is such a strong, self sufficient young man. He works full time, goes to school full time, has moved to a new city to pursue his dreams and he's not giving up. I like to believe it is because I told him multiple times to 'suck it up'. ;) As I watch him I'm in awe! I don't know if he knows it or not, but he is helping ME right now. His family, his lifeline has moved to the other side of the freaking world. He moved to a new city where he knows NO ONE. Not a single person. He is out there on his own, TRULY on his own. Yes, he has met a few new people at work but he went knowing NO ONE. What 20 year old does that? He is STRONG. He inspires me each and every day, and I miss him so much my heart physically aches.
I share this with you all today because even though I'm living the dream, I want you to know behind all the fun post of which market I shopped at, how I'm running into new/old friends, how much joy I'm getting out of eating at all our favorite restaurants in Seoul that I am just like you, going through my own stuff. Even though I make it see fun (which it is in that moment) and seamless, moving is hard, and fun, and glorious and HARD. However, I know better than anyone that it could be harder. I know that there are so many people out there that are going through so much more than I am -- I'm talking real struggles and they are one of the many reason I always count my blessings.
Life could be so much harder.
Life is good.
Till next time,
Trish
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